i’m sitting here quietly in my kitchen dinette area in my bathrobe because i don’t want to wake up otto by getting dressed and i have to get this off my chest. i’m going to level with you a minute. i’m overwhelmed. if you’ve been reading my blog since it started in 2009 this is quite common with me. i bite off more than i can chew multiple times a year, day, week, hour throughout my life. the curse of a creative. i’m a lover of things and i’m a lover of doing things and i have a serious case of consistent FOMO (fear of missing out) (that’s for you mom).
i sat in bed this morning wide awake before the alarm hummed and waiting for the coffee to brew staring at the ceiling wondering what is consuming my time. what is distracting me? the tasks i have to complete in front of me are not un doable. so what is it? and to be honest i can narrow it down to a few things. 1.) spending too much time scrolling through my phone. 2.) running needless errands because i’m trying to distract myself from the tasks that need to get done that i don’t want to do 3.) drive time. the blessing of living out in the country is no neighbors and your far away. the curse? it’s 45 minutes to anywhere you have to go.
i’m not sure where i’m going with this all but hang in there with me ok? part of this blog is selfish and i’m online journaling to sort this out myself. we are in this together ok?
i guess this is a good chance for me to get you thinking about a reader survey. as i’m preparing to launch my new site (re-design of adventures in abbyland) i would greatly appreciate your feedback as to what you want to read here. do you like my recipes? do you want to see more of my home and style? or do you just want otto? wait, don’t answer that last one i know the answer. start those wheels churning to give me some feedback because i welcome it.
maybe it’s the changing of the seasons that has me all messed up in the head. i’m ready for the slow down of fall but not quite ready for the dead of winter. but then again maybe just a tiny part of me is? no no don’t say that. erase that from your mind you didn’t see that ok? also do not repost this when i’m crying because i’m so cold.
also i should mention we have our giant market at the ottawa county fairgrounds this weekend and while we are set and prepared i’m still nervous and we still have a ton of work ahead of us.
i guess what i’m trying to say is.. i’m overwhelmed right now and i want to be honest with you about where i am at the moment. it’s easy to project that i have it all together all the time but my life is a constant changing rhythm and is constantly involves trying to figure things out.
so have a great tuesday and wait for the dust to settle because i have some exciting things coming up!