i remember that book as a kid. and yesterday was everything including a terrible horrible no good very bad day. the icing on the cake was my devotions that morning were about not losing your temper and finding good in these moments. yesterday… i was just weak. no other way to describe it other than […]

to say that i have been a total and complete hot mess express since our last cardio appointment would be an understatement. and the strange thing is… why? nothing has changed. seriously, nothing has changed. the leak in his heart is still the same, the rest of the repairs are holding up, he’s going to […]

we are heading in to the cardiologist for our first check up of 2018. i can’t believe it’s been an entire month since our last appointment. we went from going weekly when we left the hospital in october to bi weekly to monthly because otto was doing so good. so now we are returning after […]

welcome 2018. it will still take me 3 months to write 2018 because of habit. it’s amazing how much things can change in just 12 short months. as in how a life can completely flip turn upside down. i don’t mean that in a negative way i’m just amazed at how one day i went […]

i am just now realizing i’m starting off most posts with “i can’t believe” and it’s so true. i just can’t believe here joe and i celebrating with baby’s first christmas. and even now, i can’t believe we are getting to spend baby’s first christmas at home. trust me that is something i do not […]

you know what is really really really really hard? this whole concept of living in the moment. i’ve never been good at it. like ever. i’m a what’s next kind of gal. where are we going, what are we doing if A then B. living in the moment, this exact moment? nope. some times it’s […]

hooray the gang is all here and back together again. after a week of hunting in texas joe is finally back home with us. single parents. how the heck. like seriously you are my new heroes. i know that somehow with each situation we just make it work but not having the support of your […]

what is it about a hot shower that just can reset anything? seriously. i was thinking about that this morning. i woke up and little buddy was trying to get rid of some congestion from sleeping and it caused a bit of gagging and spit up during our morning snuggles. pair that with binks wanting […]

well we knew it was coming. winter is finally here. we enjoyed those 50 degree days in november and december but now as i drove in to town it was 19 degrees with snow and black ice. winter is officially here. not that i mind it. i know it comes every year and aside from […]

technically otto craig was four months old last week but you know how that goes. i can’t believe it but then again i can. this has been the longest shortest 4 months of my life. i think back to all we have gone through in these past few months and it makes things just seem […]

yesterday was a day of answered prayers. we headed back to the cardiologist for our three week check in and it couldn’t have gone better (well maybe if they couldn’t find the leak still). (which the doctor knows i’m going to ask so he answers as soon as he hears it) but you guys… otto […]

i’m starting to learn and accept that otto is just otto and he will do things and make progress when he’s good and ready. i wish i would have let this sink in about two months ago. this weekend was so wonderful and otto did so good. i feel like lately that is our current […]