the song “praise God from whom all blessings flow” has been stuck in my head since 3pm yesterday. i’ll start right out and say that the appointment did no go how we had prepared ourselves for it to go. at all. my big strong man at the doctor we started off talking with our surgeon […]

today is one of the days we’ve been anticipating and dreading all at the same time. today we are meeting with our otto’s surgeon to talk about the pending surgery and hopefully get it scheduled. i hate the idea of having it on the books because that means it’s actually going to happen but at […]

this week is turning out to be a doozy folks and i believe we are officially in the trenches. one that is testing our mental and physical stamina around here. even more so than previous weeks if you can believe that. and yesterday i was just in a really bad head space and had to […]

this week has been a total and complete roller coaster of emotions, plan, doctors etc. we have seriously had appointments every single day for the otter both at home and at helen devos. the biggest one was with the cardiologist on tuesday morning. otto had his echocardiogram (an ultrasound on his heart) and his EKG. we […]

yesterday was a long day at the helen devos hood. these appointments typically last about 2 – 3 hours not to mention getting there, checking in and of course getting coffee. I swear that starbucks in the hospital has to be the busiest one ever. we got to the appointment early in an attempt to […]

here we are again heading back in for our routine cardio appointment. i’m not an anxious person typically and i usually thrive on stress but this is a type of stress and anxiety i’ve never experienced before. probably because i never had a kid before haha. i had this conversation with another heart mom the […]

i know what now distinguishes the weekends from the weekdays. joe being home. seriously it makes such a difference when that man is home that it just makes things so much easier around here. someone to share the feedings, changings etc… also someone to be around so i can get out of the house and […]

this is something that has been weighing on me pretty much since we had our miscarriage about two years ago and now into having kids. it’s the assumption that everyone else has/had it so much easier than you. when we miscarried i would catch myself being jealous or snarky that the people who were due […]

i know my blog has been a bit sporadic and when i do post it’s usually about the tiny love dictator that robs us of all sleep but melts our hearts all at the same time… but that is seriously 90% of my life right now. sure in between feedings, poo poo changes and pumping […]

my baby is one month old. technically little otto was one month on sunday but we believe in celebrating for days. time seems to have flown by but been so slow at the same time. i look back and i can’t really imagine life how it was without him. i think i’ve learned more about […]

the only distinction for me right now between the week and weekend is having papa joe home with us. the days just seem to blur together and just like that otto turned a month old this weekend. joe and i decided it was time to get out of the house which is easier said than […]

registering for a baby is hard when you’re a new mom that really doesn’t have a clue of what you actually need for a baby. in all reality you need diapers, wipes and bottles. but there are things that make the winding streets of the mother hood easier to navigate around. i read countless mommy […]